Thursday, Jan. 20, 2005 12:07 a.m.

Guilt Trip
Today Kenneth is:

I’ve decided that guilt is a very powerful thing.
If you’re made to feel guilty. Or you just do feel guilty, it does this whole messing with your head thing.

I think MJ is pissed off that I’m not going to come up to her house tonight, apparently we talked about it over dinner this afternoon. But I don’t remember talking about it.
She said she was looking forward to seeing me, I don’t know if she means actually seeing me and me physically going over there or just talking to me over the phone/MSN when she got home.
I was watching TV when she rang and wanted to watch the show.
She’s gone offline in a rather short mood, and I feel guilty for it, I have no bloody idea why I do, but I do.
I feel like I should be doing more, and go over there, but its 11.23pm at night, its far to late for that.
Sometimes I don’t know if I should be saying “Yes dear, no problem” or “No dear I don’t want to because I need … blah blah”

This pisses me off, I feel really bad